Are You There, God?

Of course you are, you #%&$@. I just want to tell you that I am thankful, with utmost sincerity. 2010 has been an epic year for me - all 365 days of it. It's been worth living, considering the amount of apeshit life has tried to feed me. On the backside of all those however, you gave me this gay thing we call "hope." And by this, I mean hope in general terms. It's not necessarily from someone or something, rather, an enlightenment through an epiphany.

Oh you God. You're a genius for using a mere mortal human being as a vessel for bringing upon enlightenment onto my world - my world because I view it this way and not Yours or anyone's for that matter - and because of that, I am now actually looking forward to the future. It now seems pretty exciting to experience.

You might be enjoying divine champagne up there in heaven, I assume? Send me some beer here!!! I'll pay forward.

Dear Blog

May I say that the past few hours should probably be the last of my alcoholic nights. I've been a drunkard for more than a year already and I confess that it hasn't brought me anywhere - aside from empty pockets and wasted time, that is. I am actually now regretting being an alcoholic.

I should also tell you that I've changed. It may not be the best change I've had so far in this dull existence, but then, it has actually been quite eventful. Aside from meeting this person who did inspire me, I am now striving to be a better person.

It's actually funny when people say these kinds of stuff after getting megafucked by alcohol. After cursing themselves with any kind of apeshit that crosses their minds, they consistently remind themselves of the "better person" ideal they will be striving for starting right at the next day, or perhaps upon waking up. When will they actually wake up from this disillusion?

Let me tell you that I'm now writing a new novel.