Pretty Legit

I had like 9 servings of 1/4 chicken last night at Max's and I must say that I shall abstain from such food in a span of 10 days. I feel like puking whenever a chicken meal comes to mind. I was able to maximize my 165 bucks though because it's the charge for the "Chicken-all-you-want" promo, and a basic chicken meal costs around 140. So I had 9 of those, minus a cup of rice and a side dish which aren't included in the 165 promo. Ah I hope I'm making sense now 'cause I type what comes to mind since she's talking to me. Gotta go now. Things seem pretty legit at the moment.

28 Days Later, Almost

I haven't blogged for a while because 24 hours a day seem to be a short while. Day after day I've been suffering from Jurassic technology and snail speed travel and I haven't found the time to write even just for myself, which is this blog site for that matter. And because academics and Cupid's missions have been interfering my daily routine as well, I wasn't able to open my Blogger account for several weeks.

Yet here I am again unable to quit smoking. But I've lessened it drastically - I only had 5 sticks for the past week. Isn't that great for a change? At least I don't average 60 sticks a day anymore.

On to more intimate things, it's getting better. I feel the vibes. And I feel that you do get what I'm talking about. And if ever you understood what this is about, good for you.

Back and Ready to Attack

It's almost since 2 months since I wrote here although I so wanted to chronicle the things that happened all throughout the remaining days of my summer vacation and the first few days of classes. It's because I have been extremely lazy and that I've had this crappy thing for a personal computer that won't work at times so I couldn't go post stuff online.

As far as I'm concerned though, things are getting better between me and her. This is just an assumption but you could call it off as a high probability since we've been seeing each other, not dating of course, just hanging out, or kidnapping her for that matter. I'll put up a new story for that on the other cheetos.

I found some reason in life yet again and I'm going to try to quit smoking for the good, the better and the best this time. Impossible it may seem, I'm pitching my bets higher. I just suddenly felt like I could just do it. To make things much more challenging, I'm bringing a lighter with me every single day to increase my temptations and prove the world how much I can resist cigarettes - and to a greater extent, I could easily light one since I've a lighter with me whenever I feel like I can't quit anymore.

Broke

Ah shit. I started smoking again. Obviously I was stressed and I'd rather vent out my frustration on my lungs. But then, I lied to her that I was able to successfully quit. Even though it was a day made of win for me due to the fact that I was able to be truthful to her to some extent, I still made a fool out of my contract. So much for quitting cigarettes. Also, I'm kind of broke now. 7 pesos may still give me one last jeepney ride before my pockets go completely empty. I hope I'll be able to survive for two weeks.

She's the one who made me smile again - not being cheesy here by the way.

Resistance

Well after missing her this weekend I've thought of something cool about what occurred last Friday. You see, Friday was a special day because it was the time I saw her since what? - the last day of her last semester for Freshman year. Not so much of time if you ask me, but it's the presence that I've been missing out.

So I was somewhere in Ateneo, falling in line to get some lunch. Uhh, I got mine. Kris was on the other food booth still making his order. I was even telling him things like, "Ah man, it's the bell already. She'll be skipping lunch for sure because she needs to go to class." And then right at the corner of my eye a very familiar silhouette seemed to look at me for several seconds. And when I looked back at it, there's her, alone, standing.

And here's the epic part. You know that smile you display in front of some person for reasons you just can't explain? That smile you can only show to him or her or whatever - Yes, that one. And you just can't hold it back. And the more you resist it, the more sincere it turns out. Teeth seems to be a good measure of sincerity if that's the case. But that smile, that's perfectly dropping her line of defense.

Of course this is just a theory.

The Social Contract

I haven't smoked since the time and date I mentioned on the previous blog considering I was very much tempted and tortured the whole day - I'm quite thankful that self-discipline was able to put its power over my mortality and I got home without lighting a single cigarette stick. Now that's a start.

I realized that loving many people is very much possible, to the extent that you put your heart in each and every one of them. Being committed and passionate towards a single person is a different thing. And there's nothing wrong when these two occur at the same time simply because it's just an expression of how much you care for the people concerned. To cut off the cheesy thing...

I'm fond of someone. HAHAHA this is truly something different, considering the look and image of so many of my previous blogs since last year. This doesn't necessarily mean that I'm going to definitely go for her and win her or something. I'd just like to see how things will play out eventually by taking small steps towards that goal - her. But before that, I'm going to get my act together before I venture into doing something quite heroic.

Ultimatum, Probably

I'm quitting smoking. It was 11:11 pm of April 21, 2010 when I had my last stick of Marlboro Black Menthol at Encore a while ago. Of course, I smoke whenever I drink but I've finally decided, with all due determination, that I needed to stop the vice. Such a miserable effort, yes I know fellow mortal, but then I'll be doing this because I've seen beyond the smoke.

My stick, my treat. K?