Officer Dickhead

Officer Dickhead is one of Lamb of God's songs which is playing on my stereo right now.

I could not think of a better title and I'm hungry yet again. Well, I was supposed to go online 6 hours ago but then my smarty little brother a.k.a. bastard played DotA on our remaining PC 'cause 2 laptops have been fucked up like my life and the other desktop got disassembled because tech guys still had to remodel the interior.

So why did I not go online after bastard used the computer?

Beergin. Oh-ho happy birthday. Smartypants and dinglehead I was at the time, I slept. And when I woke up, voila, it's 3:27 am. Forget about Chantal's plans for tomorrow which I don't know 'cause I didn't get to talk to her - I just hope I'd be meeting up with the guys later.

And oh, I was even texting Bianca stupid things like:

"I think I got drunk
Nah kidding, I'm good I'm good.
Heeeheeeheeeheeeheee
I'm fly like the sky.
You see, I'm not drunk 'cause I still text well!
I'm strong."

Who the hell in his right ass would do this?

I'm an ass.

The Drive

School's over, well possibly, my chances of staying at my university too, primarily because I didn't get to drive myself... Something else did.

Emotions.

Fuck that. These so-called fancy little fuckers roaming around the realm of your heart constantly and continually screw you up in almost any situation that requires critical thinking of the mind. These fuckers instantaneously interfere with whatever is going on and change the course of history, forever.

You read that right. Forever. So FUCK it. Yeah, I'm tired of cyclical and angular bullshit that's been designing the model of my earthbound and temporal existence and I'm sick of bearing the inevitable ass jack pain of each and every day.

Kidding. Perhaps I should shift gears and propel myself to the real steering wheel and drive my existence to happiness.

The keys are missing though. And from there I've already fucked myself twice. Going thrice bitches. Long live eggheads of the world, you have nothing to lose but your balls.

I lost mine already. Well I have a third one.

Condolences

My grandpa (mother's side) passed away yesterday afternoon. It was expected.

It does not get me so depressed though. I realized that, if I were in my grandfather's position, and I died, I would not want others to weep for me and for my death. I do not want to see people crying because of me primarily due to the fact that I do not want to be a cause of sadness.

Secondly, if I die, I'd rather want people to rejoice because I have been a "good person" (if ever that would be true by the time I die hahaha) and that I have contributed many good things to this world.

Third, I'd want to pinpoint the epiphany that I passed away, and through that I've made the world a more complete one.

Rest In Peace Lolo. :-)

Of Pens and Papers

AHA yes! My last English paper for this semester is now done! I only have 2 more examinations to go and an oral defense before my semester officially ends.

However, I smell that I might get kicked out. HAHAHA. I'm just hanging with my hopes and dreams as of now since catching up with my grades would not be so probable anymore due to the lack of remaining time. I'm just thinking positive right now, and yes, positive. Yeah that's right, POSITIVE. Now.

And if a teacher confronts me with a threatening grade...

"Ma'am/Sir, what would Jesus do?"

I'm serious.

Bullshit

Spell the word "Life."

B-U-L-L-F-U-C-K-I-N-G-S-H-I-T

Wondering why it is long and shitty as that? Well metaphorically if someone asked you life you'd give him or her a bunch of bull fucking shit. So, really, you taught him or her how to spell life that way in the first place.

:)

Nothing But Stress

Indeed.

School's been wearing me out all day long. It was a Sunday, yes I know, but then all the pressure from the incoming hell week has been pushing down on me. And when I was doing my assigned tasks a while ago, a little thought from my younger brother came up and boggled me for quite a while.

I haven't played DotA for the longest time now! And when I saw li'l bro playing the game just this afternoon I was like: "Holy shit I missed a lot-- wait what the hell, there are new stuff found around the newly-released maps! And there are new age item builds for various heroes too! Dude, you've gotta play this game again... Seriously."

Nah, I've been able to stop the vice and the addiction already. Perhaps I'll just play the game occasionally with friends. That sounds better now.

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Anyway, our band's song has been successful. I don't know if the other guys would like to take it one step further but the recording sounds good enough for me.

Exit

If she taught me one thing, it has to be this one:

[The MEL formula]
Meaning + Existence = Life

Anyway, I've been tired from playing the game "Progressive Dessication." I am actually on my third and last chance before a complete game over, and I may say that I was able to play my remaining chance quite well for the last time. But before everything else finished, I chose to quit.

Exit Game?

Yes.

MELancholy.

Pathetic

Pathetic is a good song from Lamb of God. It's got good riffs and a sweet solo, and oh, the drums were really amazing.

Pathetic is an excellent description of life.

Trust me, life has never been happy, and it will never be.

Humans were doomed to be sad beings and will attain no success but failure in whatever aspect of life they may venture in to. Humans were cursed to be solitary forever for they will always be alone and alone for eternity. Humans were supposed to exist anyway - to be a mere biological existence that's an insignificant fraction of history.

That is how pathetic life is.

Simple Joys Of Life

For some reason my blogger's time won't sync with the "real" time. Blogger's time is lagging by about 16 hours behind and I don't know how to fix it yet.

Anyway, I just finished a paper and I decided to get a snack downstairs. There's this pack of Gardenia Pandesal at the dining table. I'm telling you, it has got to be one of the tastiest pandesals out there and I like it. It brings about the simple joys of life.

Ah yes, the simple joys of life...

... Reminds me of the times I was with her. Every moment dispensed into the past was all too precious - that reminiscing just one of those moments makes me smile.

Fills me with joy...